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Thursday, July 7th, 2005

Subject:new JOURNAL
Time:11:29 am.




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Monday, July 4th, 2005

Time:4:28 pm.
so i took this color quiz thing.

Your Actual Problem :
Feels insufficiently valued in her existing situation, and is seeking different conditions in which she will have greater opportunity of demonstrating her worth.

it looks like 100% truth.
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Thursday, June 30th, 2005

Time:11:31 pm.

join cause I said so.
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Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005

Time:5:34 pm.
J0E THE DRUMMER: eye wuv yew

I fuckin love him<3
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Monday, June 20th, 2005

Time:9:04 am.
Mood: accomplished.
Your Expression Number is 3
A natural performer, your destiny lies in writing, speaking, acting, or teaching.
Imaginative and unique, you have a natural creative talent in the arts.
You're also a natural salesperson. You can easily sell your ideas and yourself.

A total optimist, you are enthusiastic about life and living.
You are friendly and social - and people are taken by your charm.
Your role in life is to inspire, motivate, and raise others' spirits.

At times, you can seem a bit superficial.
Sometimes you're a bit unfocused and too easygoing.
You're best off when you don't dwell on trivial matters, especially gossip.

its amazing how sometimes the truth is so damn.... true
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Thursday, June 16th, 2005

Time:11:57 am.
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Wednesday, June 15th, 2005

Time:4:06 pm.
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Thursday, June 2nd, 2005

Time:10:05 am.




killer new group.

add it up<33


hardxcorehips hardxcorehips hardxcorehips hardxcorehips

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Thursday, May 12th, 2005

Time:10:47 am.
Mood: energetic.


until the day I dieCollapse )
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Saturday, April 2nd, 2005

Subject:love me please.
Time:10:11 pm.
Mood: frustrated.
if you love me whatsoever,
you will go here:
and listen.
because you love me,
and loving me means loving this band.
otherwise, DIE.
have a nice night.
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Monday, February 28th, 2005

Subject:you would kill for this
Time:5:10 pm.
Mood: annoyed.

today was pretty awesome.

we took lovely pics.



yeah and more pics from before.

I love Joe. <33


f'n YEAHCollapse )

and yeah. I stole this from Liz. and I love it. "Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

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Friday, February 25th, 2005

Time:11:28 pm.
ha there

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Monday, February 21st, 2005

Subject:you'll always be mine <333
Time:10:22 am.
Mood: lalalala.
So yeah, nothing really has gone on lately. Just hung around. I hung out with Alyshia and angela friday, it was awesome. I miss them both so much. I am going to alyshias wed. hopefully, but today I am hopefully going to Joes show, then tomorrow I am gonna hang out with Justina and nicole, I am excited for that too. I was suppose to hang out with Steph on thursday, and she was suppose to sleep over, but she has to work, I am SOO sad. -sniffles- Yeah. Last night was pretty fun. I was suppose to go to Joes show in Taunton, but Tom didnt want to play so we ended up not going. We pretty much hung out the entire day, We hung out with joel too, I was glad, he is so fun, I miss him, strangely enough. SO anyways, but yeah, last night was fun. both me and joes stomach hurt tho, :-/ yeah. We will both hopefully feel better today. Its weird. Lately I have been very hopeful of a lot of things. I dont know why, but yeah I am. I have to go, because Im tired, and dont feel like typing anymore. so yeah

<33 beth
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Wednesday, February 16th, 2005

Subject:please dont.
Time:7:41 pm.
Mood: depressed.
moving in slow like the smoke from your ciggarette. every step closer is a step that we both will regret. Keeping a tally but who can keep track, your over reacting is taking me back to a time better left alone. holding on to the phone, holding on to this glass, holding on to this memory of what didnt last. waiting for better words they'll never come, so dry your eyes its better now its done. keep a tight grip like a child holding on to a swing set, waiting and hoping to find what I cant figure out yet. Please dont unless this is somrthing to me another night there instead of a dream, better left alone.holding on to the phone, holding on to this glass, holding on to this memory of what didnt last, waiting for better words they'll never come so dry your eyes.

Holding back tears,
I should of let go.
Never stop the blood,
keep swallowing the pills.
Never look back,
just never look back.
Take another hit from your stupid little bowl.
Dont be a hypocrit.
What you want, is what you'll never get.
My body shakes with the thought of your disappointment.
I hate disappointing you,
but I just cant stop.
I do everything for you.
Just because I cant stop one thing you hate me.
I can see the confusion leaking through your eyes.
Dont lie to me, your just waiting to see if it gets better,
if it doesnt you'll leave me.
I wish I knew you better.
I wish I could feel what you feel
But I already feel your disappointment, its burning through my skin.
It takes away my vision.
All I can hear is the words you scream at me.
I can taste the tears you never cried.
Can you feel what I feel,
can you see what I cant.
Can you hear your own words shouting.
Can you taste my tears, because all of them are for you.
I cant lose you.
But I cant stop what Im doing.
I want to with all my heart,
whether you believe it or not.
I cant do it.
NO one believes I can, neither do I.
I need your support.
I need your warmth,
I need you smile,
I need your kiss.
Quite frankly, I need you.

</3 beth
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Time:11:34 am.
Mood: exhausted.
Im so irritated right now. I want to finish this project, but I forgot the cd at my house, and Trish is at the nurse. I most likely irritated Justina because I told her just to do her part, but I dont care, because I feel like shit right now, and I think someone, Joe, is mad at me. I mean I went 4 days without smoking and then yesterday I got totally ahnilated. I mean I was ugh, so freakin high. We smoked 3 L's ugh. It was unbelieveable. But since I did that yesterday I made a pact with myself not to smoke until March 16th. That is a whole entire month. I went with what my mom said with making goals. My first goal was not to smoke for 3 days, which I did, then smoked on the first day. My second goal is this one, wit not smoking for a month. All together its about 28 days. from feb. 16th til mar. 16th so yeah. If I can go longer Im going to, but if I break before then, Im going to anything I possibly can not to smoke. I refuse to smoke until that day, atleast. I know many people think I wont be able to do it, and I really dont think I can do it, but deep down I know I have to do it, no matter what. -ugh- I have to do this, not just for myself, but for the people around me, the people that care. So for all those people that read this, and that smoke with me, give me some leway and dont pressure me into it. Speaking of pressuring people into things. Ian keeps bugging me about smoking with him today, but Im not going to, because Im cool like that. psh. :)

Yeah, on a happier note. I got 16 roses, a box of reeses chocolate, and a teddy bear with hebert peanut butter chocolate in it. psh you jealous <333 I got this all from my oh so AwwSUMMM boyfriend. I miss him, even tho I saw him monday. I dunno, I didnt talk to him much last night, he called me 4 times last night but I only remember talking to him once, unless my phone is completely possessed. I dont feel very well right now. :-/ hmmm... I really need to talk to joe. like really bad. I need to tell him something, that has been bothering me since I got home last night. I think I told him last night, but I cant remember. I hope I told him, I hope he isnt mad if I didnt. ugh. Im so weird.

well I have to go find justina, I need to talk to her too.

BTW. Joe if you read this before you talk to me. Call me.


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Saturday, February 12th, 2005

Time:1:30 pm.
Mood: contemplative.

See what drug you are.

What Is Your Best Sexual Skill?
Flirting Skill Level - 82%
Kissing Skill Level - 31%
Cudding Skill Level - 57%
Sex Skill Level - 59%
Why They Love You You keep going and going and going...
Why They Hate You You are too sexy.
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You are pretty much the coolest animal, a Liger.

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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nice. just nice.

yeah so I had a mental breakdown last night.

I need to stop smoking like seriosuly. Its taking over my life.
Its really sad that I cant go a week without smoking and without having a freak out moment. It scares me.

I know people care about me.
but no one besides maybe lori and Joe have actually brought up the fact that i should stop. and know that I think about it. and I do take a step back, I realize how fucked up the situation is. I really do let it run my life. I make plans around doing it. Its not one of those thigns where its just there. I go places where I know its gonna be, so I can do it. I just need to stop. Im basically gonna tell everyone that if they are doig it dont let me be apart of it. cause I cant live like this.

I even woke up my mom last night to talk to her about it I think I freaked her out. but I just needed to talk to someone with authority. She basically told me the exact same thing Joe did, but it always means more when it comes from your mom. I mean my mom knows basically everything now, all the way down to not being a virgin. I think it brought me closer to her. I just need the will power. and I def. need a hobby to keep my mind off of it. I just ugh. I need a hobby man. lol

well I g2g

the semi is tonight. and Im going <33333333 YEAS. and joe is coming with me.

and so is justina. and her NEWWW BOYFRIEND!!!!!!

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Thursday, February 10th, 2005

Subject:thanks to kaleigh. and Hawthorne heights.
Time:2:53 pm.
Mood: loved.
Tell her you think shes AMAZING. (you already do that)
Tell her why you think shes so amazing.
Play with her hair.
Talk to her in movie theatres.
Snuggle, Hold her hand, and lightly KISS her.
Hold her hand and walk.
Hold her hand and run.
Just hold her hand.
Pick flowers from other peoples yards and give them to her.
Tell her she looks BEAUTIFUL. (you already do that)
Introduce her to your friends as "The most amazing girl I know''(you already do that)
Sit in the park and talk to her.
Take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and coffee shops.
Tell her stupid jokes... Whatever it takes to make her laugh. (you already do that)
Write poems about her.
Walk with her, even if its just around the block.
Throw pebbles at her window at night.
Do things that make her SMILE, make her LAUGH, and make her want to KISS you right on the face. (you already do that)
When she starts yelling at you, tell her you love her.
Give her back rubs.
Play football with her.
Let her fall asleep in your arms.(you already do that)
Call her even if its just to say hi.
Call her back if she calls you.
Jump on the bed with her.
Whisper in her ear.
Sing to her, no matter how bad you are.
Carve your names into a tree.
Get her mad, then KISS her.
Push her on swings.
Stay up with her all night.
Leave her little unexpected notes.. on the car, or on her door, saying how much she means to you.
Take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look at the *stars*.
Make up nicknames for each other.
Show up at her work or apartment unexpectedly.
Send flowers and dorky notes that only you two understand.
Teach her guitar. -edit- teach her drums
Lend her your cds. (you already do that)
Make her cds of songs that remind you of her.
Write her letters.
If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car trip.
Go on a road trip even if theres no destination or you cant be gone long.
Listen to her favorite songs. (you already do that)
When shes sad or sick, hang out with her or stay on the phone with her, even if shes not saying anything.
Buy her ice cream. (you already do that)
Let her take all the pictures of you SHE WANTS.
Look into her eyes.
Slow dance with her, even if the music is fast.
Make her a romantic dinner for special days.
Remember dates.. even ones like your first kiss or date and surprise her on the anniversary.
Kiss her in the rain.
Kiss her when she least expects it.
When you fall in love with her, TELL HER.

hey gorgeous. I love you.
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Wednesday, February 9th, 2005

Subject:OH Yeah!
Time:5:12 pm.

another thing.

I'm really sick of being me.
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Subject:cant you cant you feel it!
Time:4:54 pm.
Mood: lethargic.
So the last few days were alright. I've had better. but during school I have actually been a little joyful. :-/ I think I need to dance. But ugh. I dunno. All of a sudden I have this GIGANTIC urge to go to the semi. I dont know why, but I do. But since Im going to Alyshia's I can't. I know Im gonna have fun at lyshia's tho. I was thinking of bringing Alyshia to the dance, but I dont think she will have fun, cause she wont know anyone. O well. I hung out with Joe yesterday. I was EXTREMELY happy. We went to this kid Josh's house so they could record some more. It was kind of awkward at first because yeah, but I loosened up. Chris, Tom, and Joel all did really good. Joe hasnt started to record yet tho. but yeah. right before we left josh toked up. Just the smell of it drove me insane. I def. need to take a REALLY large break. So I am. whether certain people think I will or not.

yeah I think I need to vent again. here it goes.

-my stomach hurts extremely bad.
-I want stuffing like whoa.
-I need to go to the store like WHOA.
-I feel the need to listen to madonna.
-I need to take a large break from weed.
-I miss Joe.
-I miss my grandmother.
-I need to talk to my mom, but I dont know how to.
-I want subway.
-I wish Eric didnt drink.
-I need to lose weight, or atleast make my stomach pretty.
-I want to dye my hair.
-I want to get my lip pierced.
-I want to cut my feet off.
-I need to do my homework.
-I know I did incredibly bad on my chem. quiz today.
-I have this HUGE craving for coke.
-my stomach is killing me.
-I think Im getting my period. fucking ew.
-my hands are wicked cold.
-Im so hungry.
-Im sick of my room. I want to move to my basement.
-I want my own computer.
-I want a new jacket.
-I highly doubt its gonna snow.
-I want -edit- NEED to get my pictures developed.
-my boobs are extremely itchy.
-I need a kiss.
-and a hug.
-I want new sneakers.
-I want new jeans.
-I want to see Stephenie.
-I want to see Alyshia.
-edit- I need to see stephenie.
-I want to see lori.
-I miss angela.
-I miss voke.
-I really do need coke.
-I need a kiss extremely bad.

yeah Im done.

♥ beth

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Monday, February 7th, 2005

Subject:my heart is yours to fill or burst<33
Time:6:39 pm.
Mood: chipper.



I had a pretty good weekend. I didnt get to get my goodbye kiss yesterday tho, because I get aggravated too quickly. Im not going to see Joe for like 2 weeks. ugh depressing. but yeah.

today was good too. I ran around my house in a bathing suit. Then got super naked. jumped in the shower and sang along with "Dream" for like a half an hour. ladidadida. Then my mom came home, and was super irritating. I honestly wanted to drop kick her RIGHT IN THE FREAKIN TOE.

but yeah.

Im gonna go call alyshia now.

my new layout is killer.


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